It never fails, does it? Stepped in it again. I try to be helpful, try to be a good friend, a good partner... and it all just backfires.
You saw how it all started. A sweet old lady at the end of her life. Ready for it to be over. At peace with how and when it was coming. No regrets about how she lived her life. Saw it all, did it all. The model of how life should be and end.
That one sweet old lady sent Nancy into a tailspin. Well, that and Rabbit talking about moving in together. Boy! Talk about bad timing. For some girls, that would be a good thing -- taking the relationship to that next level. But for Nancy, it's like a one-two punch.
It's funny how Nancy is usually the one trying to prevent other people from spinning -- me especially. But this is like the tunnel all over again, just with a different kind of claustrophobia. It's figurative rather than literal. Her world is closing in on her. She's questioning all those crossroads decisions she's made over the years. Now she's finding herself at yet another crossroads. And she's paralyzed.
Personally? I don't think it's that tough of a decision. Like I've said before, start with you. Choose what makes you the happiest. And if your friends and family can't support your decision, screw them. Because at the end of the day, you have to be able to live with yourself.
But Nancy isn't built that way. She's grown up taking care of everyone else. She's not sure how to take care of herself. So, she brings even more baggage to this particular crossroads. It can't be easy. And I don't envy her at all.
So, I get it. I get why she kissed me. A crazy whirlwind of emotions that just needed some kind of outlet. It makes perfect sense. But, dammit! Why me? And why did it have to happen now? When things are finally gelling with Nancy and me as partners... when things between Diana and me are going really well. I mean, what do I do now? How do I talk to Nancy about this? What's Rabbit gonna do when he finds out? And most importantly, how do I tell Diana?
Help me out here. This is all new territory for me you guys...
Pace a voi.