Yesterday was my blind audition. What a roller coaster of emotions! I woke up at 5 to be ready to leave at 7 a.m. My family and I went to The Voice bright and early to wait in line to audition. I was surprised I wasn't exhausted because I hadn't slept AT ALL last night! I just kept having these horrible nightmares! I was standing on stage on national tv with everyone I used to work with watching from their living rooms and as my song finishes, NO ONE turned around. Each time this scenario would play in my head my heart would sink and I'd feel a cold chill run down my spine. It was honestly, terrifying!
The show started and we all (contestants) gathered around and watched as all of the coaches (Cee Lo, Adam, Blake and Christina) all performed "Crazy." It was AMAZING! Immediately I was flooded with emotions. And I knew I was moments away from standing on that same stage and singing ... as an artist. My eyes swelled up with tears and it hit me ... I was finally going to get my shot. My name got called. The rest of my family were taken to a room backstage where they would watch on a monitor (yikes!) and I was taken backstage. I began pacing like a mad woman going over my lyrics and praying like a Pentecostal! By this time, my nerves had long left me and all I could feel was gratitude and a CRAZY amount of excitement! Then I was handed the mic. I walked out of the door and up the stairs to a quiet that was deafening! I searched to find my star to stand on. Then the music started. It was amazing, I didn't feel any nerves at all. The audience almost immediately recognized my song "Gunpowder and Lead." Their enthusiasm was so awesome that I didn't even notice or care about the chairs. Finally as my song drew to the end I realized that no one had turned around. I thought to myself, "It's ok, it's over and it's ok." I wasn't sad, I wasn't hurt, I wasn't angry ... I was just happy to have been there. Then all of the sudden on the last note of my song a chair turned around. It was Christina Aguilera. I was stunned! I didn't know what to say! I hope I don't look like an idiot when I watch this thing! All I could think of was, "What? Did this just happen? That's Christina Aguilera, did she just turn around for ME??" I just never imagined in a millions years she would turn around for me. I have admired her since I auditioned for the Mickey Mouse Club years ago - I just think she's amazing! I had originally hoped for Blake, after all I sing country music, but I couldn't have been more blown away and excited with Christina!
I was disappointed in what Blake had said ... but it's ok. I made it past the Blind auditions!!! I couldn't have been happier. I went backstage to see my family. Poor Carson, I think we all pretty much ignored him. What an incredible day that I will never ever forget!!!! All the pressure was off, for now ... I feel so blessed to have had this opportunity and to have made it this far ... No matter what happens next I will always be thankful for what has happened so far.